Awakening and Its Supporting Conditions

Hello my friends.
This video blog will be a bit more personal than previous ones. I’d like to think about Awakening and its supporting conditions.
It was in the beginning of 2009 when I had - what we might call - an Awakening experience, the realization of non-separation. From that point on, the perception of the world changed. However, I can say that the feeling of Enlightenment was not abiding.
There were blissful seconds, minutes and sometimes hours of total immersion in Consciousness, however, then there are times in which I just intellectually understand and then catch myself desiring and trying to attain that heavenly state again.

Intellectually knowing with your mind but not feeling with your heart and body is very contradictory in itself - even ironic. Despite knowing that the Ego doesn’t exist (and the old Ego was awakened from), apparently a new Ego arose and is now a new barrier in between all the desires and whom we really are.
This situation can be called ‘trying to close the gap’ or ‘trying to escape the maze’ of feeling Separation although we know that neither the gap nor the maze exist. At this point, there is no direct advice I can share with you all, except to improve your own self-reflection or self-awareness. Please know that I do not want to create opinions or judgments about what is good or bad. There is no difference for example between an awakened being and a non-awakened being. In fact, the thought of Awakening being great is a big step away from it.

Lets look at Awakening and its supporting conditions - with conditions resembling environment, culture and circumstances. Again, this is very personal and has no right to be true. I’ll just be talking about potential conditions that can support Awakening or even support an abiding Enlightenment. Important to say is that we’ll reflect on these conditions from the perspective of Separation! You may already KNOW that in reality no such thing as Separation exists, but nevertheless, the feeling of it does.
And from this point of view, we can say that

Certain quite definite inner and outer conditions are requisite for (Awakening) — a certain culture, the education of those elements (friendly) to cosmic consciousness, and the elimination of those hostile to it.
by P.D. Ouspensky

About one year before my Awakening I underwent a serious change of life, to be specific, I moved to the other side of the globe away from everything I knew. So let me reflect on the conditions in the time shortly before my Awakening, thus making analogies to elements friendly or hostile to it.
These elements will be separated into “Absence of Hostile Elements”, “Presence of Friendly Elements”:

“Absence of Hostile Elements”
- No noise (from the city)
- No health-issues (like allergies)
- No monetary problems
- No unconscious influences from people close to me (ego-habits, contagiousness of minds)
- No interest in material belongings
- No drug consumption of any kind, e.g. alcohol
- No expectations
- unconsciously communicated to you, e.g. from family or friends
- consciously communicated to you, e.g. from work
- unconsciously given to you by yourself!

“Presence of Friendly Elements”
- Nature, stillness
- Aloneness (not loneliness)
- Great and more honest relationships
- Love (more in personified form) to family and friends
- Another culture than at “home” which was more pleasant-natured
- Unrestricted freedom in all facets of life
- Personal life (Do what you love)
- Work life (Trustful environment, my own boss, great team, success)
- Pursue all own desires

This combination of Elements then resulted in
- Realization of vicious circle, never ending dissatisfaction of own desires (due to the complete satisfaction of all desires)
- Thoughts about the unreality of things
- Meditation
- Frequent experiences of synchronicity
- Entry of the mysterious and wonder into life
- Discovering a new logic (of higher dimensions)
- Awakening
- .
- Seeking knowledge about this experience in books
- Started to share thoughts with others
- Trying to close the gap

However, what makes some of these elements “hostile” and others “friendly”?
Every human being has the ability to judge about something. Most of us take this judgement for reality though – which it is not.
So this Voice of Judgement creates Thought which we think are true, and all it requires is things you don’t like. Things we are in rejection to.

For example if you want to own a great car, you don’t like that you don’t already have it and that creates thought. The more judgmental a person is, the more thoughts are created and that is very polluting. Feel free to reflect on each of these hostile elements shown here of how much they affect your life.

Now the complicated part is this: you will never be able to eliminate the problem itself, only the way how we perceive it. Noise for example. Same with expectations. You will always have expectations but the question is how much you believe them or let them negatively affect yourself.

Then, in the moment of no more thoughts, what remains is Stillness. In this state, there’s nothing but witnessing what is. Including thoughts. Thoughts will still be there but they will not be taken for true anymore. But then, if there is just a tiny amount of identification with judgment, for example due to the desire to awaken (or abide in Awakening), the Stillness will be covered up by thoughts once more. The identification has to cease again. Then, in this state of Stillness, the world is turned upside-down to the absolute positive full of joy, wonder, love, abundance, creativity and clarity.

Of course, Awakening can happen due to completely different conditions than what I had the chance to have in my life. Very often people awakened due to great suffering and an overwhelming amount of hostile elements in their life. Some people awakened because they were close to death.
For all those people sharing and teaching in their many ways though it is impossible to re-create such negative, hostile situations. On the other side, it is possible to strive for a positive and friendly culture. Please help with that. Then, the world will become more conscious and more still every day!